We all go through seasons in life.
Some are good - dripping in passion, presence, unbelievable drive and mostly freedom. Other times, they are kinda crappy - overcome by sadness, lack of motivation, frustration and mostly insecurity. For me, 2016 hammered me in that exact order. A beautiful season in the first half of the year and a tiring one in the latter half. When 2017 was about to approach, I just felt weary. I felt anxious for our world, disappointed by unrealized expectations and relationships, and just downright distraught over a major fallout within my church community + leadership. That last one. Well, it left me heartbroken.
The world was swirling around me and I constantly felt a pang in my chest. All the moisture was sucked from the air, and I was left feeling dry. Spiritually dry, to be exact.
Has this happened to you?
Woof. It's been the worst. But you know what, I wasn't really helping my situation. I retreated. Pulled away from church. I spent a lot of time being angry, disappointed, frustrated with leaders I trusted. Quiet time? Yeah, that was rarely happening. Naturally, I felt very far from God. Not much space for the Holy Spirit to move when I was internally whining all the time, instead of leaning on Him. Heck, my writing was even suffering. I knew a lot of it had to do with not having the routine of church + community. If nothing else, the fall showed me how spiritual disciplines make or break - well, my life.
Then 2017 burst on the scene, attempting to scrub away the stains of 2016 and I knew I had to play my part in making it a healthy, happy year. So after some lollygagging, I finally put the tissues away from mourning my time at my old church and started the adventure of exploring new churches. And you know what y'all?
I am feeling like a new person.
Even after one service, I'm feeling motivated to find a community, grow in my faith, get back in my Bible, pray bold prayers and enter into a new season of praise. I even have this (weird) urge to research some theological classes to take for fun. Yes, for fun. It's like the moisture was dumped back in the air around me.
Now, there are still some residuals leaving a bit of a hangover from 2016, and insecurities are unexpectedly popping up here and there (Apologies to my roommates who were the brunt of that last weekend. Y'all are angels.). But as I'm engaging more with the Word, it's all starting to heal. Kind of like how a NY bagel with cream cheese heals after a real hangover. (Which seems to happen after one glass of wine these days...)
So if you're in a season of spiritual dryness, don't quit. Don't let your Bible collect dust. Don't ignore the importance of a church community. Press in further. Start now.
Yes, right now.
If you've been feeling like you just haven't been able to connect with your Maker, well here's some Scripture to give you that booster shot. It will help, I promise. You're thirsty, so why not take a drink?
"Now on the last day, the great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out saying, 'If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink.' He who believes in Me, as the Scripture said, 'From his innermost being will flow rivers of living water.' But this He spoke of the Spirit, whom those who believed in Him were to receive; for the Spirit was not yet given, because Jesus was not yet glorified." - John 7 37-39